WaT iS LiFe To mE nOw!!!

November 8th, 2005 by estee-woon

MAY D FORCE BE WIF ME N I WILL SURVIVE EVEN IF IM ALONE!!!

Some ppl say life is about FANTASY. N some say life is about SHARING. N my fren told me tat life is about ENJOYMENT. But those beautiful meaning of life are no longer found in my dictionary.

Enjoyment could not fantasize me no more. SUFFERING is wat i felt. Sharing is a feeling been buried long ago deep in me. SILENCE is wat i can share. N i couldnt even see d shadow of fantasy in way anymore. Point of DARKNESS  is wat im towards now. Nothin is in my view now.

LIFELESS n LONELINESS is my perception bout life now. POINTLESS n MEANINGLESS is my speech. BITTER n SOUR is wat i taste. NONSENSE n FALSE STATEMENTS is wat i hear. And only FAKE COMPROMISE is wat i can smell from wat ppl told me.

Wif tis perception of life. N once again may d FORCE b wif me n i wil SURVIVE thru tis tangle / obstacle / problem / knot n wateva it is tat is blockin my journey.

here is another perception of life by one of my best fren…<LEANNE>

"but those beautiful words now no longer found in my dictionary..what i could feel in my dictionary now is the simple word which is suffer..sharin love wit some1 that doesnt love me in return will eventually hurt me even deeper..now..what is leading me is the darkness site of the kingdom..no more fantasy dreaming..no more sharing the happy moment.."

BaCk 2 Da rOuTiNe…

September 15th, 2005 by estee-woon

haha….im back in action after a week off….on leave for a week coz wanna prepare for my resit paper…

durin da 1 week leave…i went up to kl n stay thr to study…yah,wanna thanx Apple for "sau lauing" me durin da stay at kl….if not i sleep roadside d…hehe… beside tat, wanna thanx my kaki Teresa n lovely Apple for da time n advise…thanx for sparin ur precious time to b wif me n listen to my crapz tat so stupid n doesnt make sense n my ramblin tat neva hav reachin point durin my stay thr….hehe….

Us_4 its been a reali great week thr except for da awfullMel_2  moments….tat stay reali brings me back to da moments when we were 7 altogether…da 2 yrs thr is reali a good ones…neva wil i forget…those crazy stunts we did together, da christmas tat we celebrated together, da steamboat, da cookin, yamcha, shoppin (jusco), da singin session, dancin n yoga….haha…thr is reali lots more 2 b listed…haih….damn miss tat moment…

tis time journey are said to b more satisfyin than da fews trips thr b4 tis…coz tis time, i get to meet ups wif my jimuiz…even ah mel oso came…hehe…even it was a 1 day stay…but i damn long din c her d laer….n guess wat…she same hometown wif me wan ler…tis was 1 of da funny part…same hometown but meetin up at kl….hahah…imagine tat…hahah….

                                         Andrew_1   < - - - aNdReW (zai zai’s father)  =)

first day thr get to meet up wif andrew onli…went 2 look 4 him to getz my notes n to visit n play wif his son ~zai zai~….haha….den hav a brief conversation wif him to catch up wif wat is goin on lately n how is avones….den hav dinner wif 2 jimuiz n a new fren ~ ah yen…went eat nasi lemak 4 dinner tat nites…den go bac n hang out at her room doin woo liaw tings…haha….

den friday ah mel came n join us after work…hehe…da whole day oso nuthin to do den eat, read n sleep…sienz aer…til nites laer…good aer..mel came..we meet up at TBR den go for dinner…we hav chinese foods 4 dinner dat nite…den went bac hostel rest den later again…hehe…went out mamak wif jimuiz…ah mel din go…she laer…wanna watch those TVB series in Apple’s comp laer….chish…den mel say she wil wait til we bac den wanna chit chat wan…coz very long din chit chat d….mana tau by da time we reach hostel…she slept d….pig laer her…..haha….

den sat…ah mel after lunch d she balik….den i went out for lunch wif my coll frenz…oppsss…shud say ex-coll frens….hahah…since im not studyin d….reali glad to meet dem tat day…MC-D as lunch…haha…den chatted wif Lesly dey al…cope up wif wats happenin, those changes n news bout avting since i lefted coll….den not much happenin ting d….

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den sunday nites went RGK mamak…meet up wif kien yap & swee jin…damn super long din c dem oredi….crapz n updating each others bout life lately after so long din c…den monday…went for exam…after exam went back hostel n sleep…haha….til nites wake up…go dinner at TBR again…hehe….tnt eat at Remix mamak stall…erm…da mihun mee goreng not bad…den da blended drinks…wakakak….i tinks it is kinda cheap loer…n it taste good oso…RM2.00 for a glass of ice blended cappuchino….not bad….den when we eatin tat time…suddenly came few guys n stand beside us waitin for place to set down….hohoho…one of da guys quite leng chai…so wats more…take a few glance laer…haha…b4 i get da chances to tel my jimuiz tat time…sebaliknya dey tel me back…hahaha…..thr was no more place oredi tat time…so da mamak boy set a table for dem…wanna noe whr dat mamak boy set up da table???hahahaha…..NEXT TO US….but he sitted back faced us…haha…

den i din look d since his back faced us…wat to c somemore…his back aer!!!hahah…so din peep d loer….while i was tryin so hard to finish up my ice blended cappuchino, sumtin actuali happen….my fren sitted faced their table wan maer…so can clearly c wat happen loer…while im stil tryin hard to finish my drink….he actuali look over n i din realize…haha….mayb im too into my act…his fren told him wat im doin den he turn over n c den he smile….hahah……den my fren slowly tap me on my left hand…den i was like WAT???den she told me laer…haha….well…as usual again….i naik gila….i started to crapz n ramblin non-stop n eventuali make fun out of it…..den i buat lawak lawak bodoh….hahah….i was so damn high wif my crazy acts til i stand n walk off n forget to take my tings….hahah…walk wif gaya maer…wanna giv him a last cool impresssion b4 i left maer….den got mumbled by my frenz coz walk off so gaya until forget to take my ting….tis is 1 of da phrase i heard…."u walk wif penuh gaya onli laer…while me hav to help u take ting wif penuh tak bergaya"…haha…tis is one of da mumbling parts….hahah….

den da next day im goin bac d…so tat nitez went for a last mamak wif Rachel n Teresa…Apple didnt join us coz she is havin exam da next day….jalan round in da hostel n chatted wif Rachel….after tat i got nuthin to do den i TVB series marathon….haha….

da next day woke up n wish Apple good luck for exam den get ready to go back….back to whr….back to whr I cum from…back to my previously 3 months life…a routine life…work, work, work, work….nuthin but work….haih…..back to da lifeless me…ohhh…i started to miz da few days thr, da jimuiz n da memories….im lookin DAMN forward to our next gatherin…..da Ipoh trip…hope tis wil b a success plan….til den…im stil repeatin my lifeless, boring n stupid daily routine…..sigh sigh….=(

PD Rave Party…

August 24th, 2005 by estee-woon

erm…juz got my time to write blog…how to start ler??? wat to write about ler…kayz laer…lets tok bout my journey to PD Rave….haha…since i cant tink of any special ting to write about…n not much happenin stuff lately oso…since PD rave juz past last week n was my most enjoyable time since i started work…work life is so dam hectic,miserable, lifeless, meaningless…n al da negative points laer…haih…study time is da best…kayz…cutz da crapz…lets start…

It was a nice bright mornin…i mean last sat…but sadly, I stil need to work. but it wasn’t tat bad after al…i work til 2pm den my bf came n fetch me…we were actuali in kinda rush coz we were suppose 2 follow my fren car…n he is leavin to PD around 4pm like tat since he get a free room there…he wanna reach earlier so tat he can take a rest b4 da party begin…hehe…

avting was kinda rush…as for me…hehe…juz take avting slow n done it my way like nobodys business…i suppose to b fast but not furious laer…hehe….but…i was like a snail…takin my time to ready my stuff, take bath,findin my tings al over da place…lookin up here…under table…haih….outside laundry area…wakaka…avting is almost done…ops…whr is my pants???shit…here goes again me….lookin up n down…runnin to da front, back, room, closet….haha…thr u r…got cha…oh ya…n it was 3pm d…hehe…suppose to eat wif da fren b4 we go PD…time is reali runnin out man…n did i mentioned tat….hehe…almost 30 miss call on my phone…haha….

kayz…when i hop into my bf car…he told me tat we r not goin tat early d…we r followin another fren car…lets cal tis as fren C…juz now tat wan tat go PD at 4pm wan is fren E…dare not to mention their names here…duno dey like it or not…so juz keep it wif tat initial…hehe…

since fren C wun b goin tat early…so me n my bf went to hav our lunch…erm…reali not a bad day…we went for pizza…n good ting happens thr…we juz need to pay for a regular pizza n we get a large one….wakakak….muz b me…da lucky charm…hahaha…nolaer…actuali it was one of da staff who took our order wrongly…he took da wrong order for us…den ended up, i tink is da supervisor thr…she came over n apologize for da careless of her staff n told us tat da set wil stil be serve followed da wrong order…which is da large pizza…but we juz need to pay da sum of da set we supposed to ordered which is da one wif regular pizza…haha…wat a lucky day…hehe…=)

wah…tok so long d…stil not yet reach PD rave part…haha…sorry loer…i noe im talkative n crapz lots….ei..hav 2 understand laer…my first time writin blog…kayz kayz…cutz da crapz…i wil cutz off those subsidiary parts…hehe…

2 cars  leave at da same time…another one left earlier d…but dey keep it on track laer…so tat da 2 cars tat cums after tat could catch up wif dem…2 cars den met da earlier left car on da middle of d journey to PD…den thr it goes…3 cars in a row…hehe…very yeng wan u noe…

tick tock tick tock…aikss…past 9pm d…finally we reach…we stop by at K.F.C for some of dem who hav not taken their dinner to satisfied their druming stomach…recharge maer…if not later how to party…hehe….den we headed to da spot….OMG…u can c humans along da street looked like army of ants…SHIT…NO PARKING!!!!arg….my legs is numb after da long journey…dun feel like walkin laer…aiyo…so far…walk until thr oso no mood to party d laer…haih…but tings alwiz out of expectation…ppl like us (crazy)…can easily juz built da party feelin in a seconds…hahaha…

kayz…we found parking…we get off…ops…out of 90% of us forget to fill in da details in d pass…din fill up, if not later how to get drinks…luckily one of da frenz car got pens…aiya…y avone oso so "big head prawn" wan…except me…coz my ticket was al d time wif my bf…so i dunno…wakakak…kayz…avtings is done…now we hav to walk….but we dun reali feel da distance laer….why aer???coz we crapz, tease, makes jokes & crazy among us thru da whole walkin session…tats y laer…we dun feel da distance…hehe….

hurray..!!!reach da entrance d…now we hav to squeeze in…haha…aiks…guess who i saw….my ex-coll frens….she told me got another 2 fella came oso…but even til da end of da party oso i din c dem… =(

Is_2 yahoo…!!!!get in d…now go getz drinkz…1 heineken, 1 pouch & 1 mineral water…kayz…avone CHEERS…warm up maer….hehe….now lookin for OUR spot…hehe….yeah…reach d….avone satisfied…so party is on…u can c ppl shuffler al over da place…..muscular man(coz dey took off their shirt)…sexy lady(coz dey wore bikini)…wakaka…music, big screen, dj’s, fireworks, n….got laer…cant tink of now…HERE GOES DA MUSIC N AVONE ROARS!!!DA PARTY NITEZ LIGHTEN UP BY DA MUSIC…

den avone juz get HIGH….i means excited, enjoy, into the music…hehe…dun simply tink…dance n shuffler…jump n hop…wat kinds of pattern n style oso got laer…hahah….as usual..not sometin unusual…gurls in a group while guys in another but standin juz beside onli laer…haha…wat else somemore….get crazie laer…when gurls get together, dey reali can get wild man…hehe….

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3 of da PD beach party babes!!!

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al da shufflers kaki (pro)…haha…

without realisin…time passes so fast….we split to 2 groups…those stayin over nite n those goin back…im followin those goin back wan…haha…sometin tat im happy wif….manage to persuade my bf for piggy-back ride which cut short my distance of walkin…i lazy to walk maer…hehe…2 carz leavin da happenin place…headin back to whr we from…meet some difficulties when goin back…but manage to solve it…juz tat reach home bout an hrs later…hehe…

avone enjoy da nite…al those hittin, teasin, jokin n juz avting…dey reali fills av imperfects seconds…tis was my most enjoyable n satisfied time since WORKIN!!!

endz…

P/S : tis was suppose to b post up earlier but due to da tasks i was given to b completed within given times by boss…its makes reali lil times left 4 me to b wif tis blog here…tats y it tooks me so long to complete tis blog n post…n due to my very first time of usin blog…so kinda slow a bit to catch up da usage of al da functions…hehe….